I am going through a lot of shit at the moment. Every area in my life is pretty much falling apart and not for lack of trying. I have always been an incredibly self aware person – maybe it comes with being a shy, self conscious kid?- and this state of mind is driving me crazy. Being faced daily with my failures is excruciating.
I am so confused as to what exactly it is that one does after repeatedly failing in a particular area. At first I was able to bounce back, regroup and tackle it once again but at this stage, I really do not have any hope left. I am going through the motions but the drive has gone.
I’m losing my mind slowly but surely. It frustrates me how failure in one area in your life can affect all other areas, including my most treasured relationship.
All I can say is that I need a break. I truthfully cannot go on much longer